I sit here surrounded,alone. My body has given up it is no longer the temple I remember it to be! I know I am still inside but she doesn't come out any more. I HAVE BECOME A PRISONER OF MY TEMPLE, MY BODY. I WANT HER BACK! ~~LYNN RUBY BIRD SPIRIT~~
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life in constant 24/7 pain, dealing with pain as it effects every aspect of life, doctors ,their attitudes. Family, their lack of understanding, and friends.Who try but have very full lives with little time. I AM MOT A JUNKIE, I DO NOT SEEK PAIN MEDICATION~~I SEEK PAIN REFILE~~~ I WANT A QUALITY LIFE. Part of exsitanse not watching from a distance, in pain.
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10 December, 2010
this too shall pass
I know you remember 20 years ago when the worst word in the lexicon was steroids. Now it has become the holy grail for all that ales you. How silly to think pain medication would be the proper medication to use for pain. Just wait in another 20 years we will be back to steroid abuse and they will be handing out pain mediation again. Never mind steroids destroy the bones ( no blood ) after that,then what? Or the destruction of most organs is a given, how many transplants can they do in a day? Do the Doctors really think we like to humiliate ourselves telling very intimate details of our lives to strangers allowing them to decide the quality of how we exist. Why should I trust a complete stranger to CARE for me, they are getting paid. I bet they wouldn't care to much about me if the money went away. So I am to put all my trust in someone who only really cares for me because they are getting paid. The is of course those who are on power trips, g-d the worst kind of care giver. So we get to grovel and beg for a few nuts that help us, simply to get out of bed. I can't imagine they believe we WANT these damn things so much we jump through their hoops all the time, willingly giving control of our lifes just for the fun or high. IF ONLY THEY WOULD LISTEN ~~IT'S MY BODY ~~I WON'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. I know myself lived in this temple for 52 years now,I REALLY WISH THEY WOLD LISTEN! B'SHALOM~~~RUBY LYNN
09 December, 2010
30 November, 2010
this too shall pass
When I go to sleep at night I am grateful another day has passed. I can put it and myself to rest, praying tomorrow will bring something new and better into my life. EACH NIGHT I PRAY THAT THE NEXT DAY WILL PUT MORE PIECES INTO THE PUZZLE OF MY LIFE.
28 November, 2010
this too shall pass
It has been awhile, I am trying to deal with increase back problems, eyes that don't want to work, and about 5 oth9er issues. Here is the big one, 99% of chronic pain dr.'s in Minnesota do not believe in pain medication. for chronic pain they give steroid injection. THEY DON'T BELIEVE IN PAIN MEDICATION? HOW LONG HAS MEDICATION BEEN A RELIGION? then we could discuss the diabetes I developed from steroids or the 200 pounds I gained or the fact that I am allergic to them. My skin becomes bright red and feels like I am being eaten by fire ants, the best of all~~THEY MAKE ME CRAZY~~ do nothing for the pain,last but not least NO SLEEP that will drive a person to complete distraction. MEDICATION IS NOT A RELIGION~~WHAT WORKS FOR ONE COULD KILL ANOTHER.
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