27 July, 2011
this too shall pass
I can not quite understand why people call me and tell me how busy they are to even pick up the phone. Do people not understand that I would love to be and wouldn't want to have the time to pick up the phone. But the fact is, I have so much time that I'm not quite sure sometimes to do next. It really does not make me feel any better knowing that you are so busy. While I sit here. So if you'd really like to make me feel better call and just say hi. We don't have to go out for lunch, or even talked on the phone for 10 minutes, although that would be nice. It's difficult to feel so disconnected from the human race and the simple phone call means so much, I feel a lot less lonely and isolated,it's only a phone call, and it only takes two minutes to help someone most of the time feel a part of something bigger than their bedroom.
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17 July, 2011
this too shall pass
I do not know what it is I become so serious when in front of a blank piece of paper. In life, away from blank sheets of paper, people are always laughing, I think it is with me......not at me, one can never know for sure. See it just does not come out funny, you should have heard it in my head, I laughed. New goal, learning to laugh on paper, now that is just weird sounding, but true!!! I know that humor helps with pain, So for a while anyway I am practicing let art of laughter on paper!!!!!
10 July, 2011
this too shall pass
Finally, a good long sleep. I think I slept on the sofa for 3 hours and then straight to my bed for another 8 wow that just never happens anymore. Pain wakes me up every 2 or 3 hours, I am up for 2 and then another 2 or 3 hours. That is the pattern, not to good for someone trying to heal. BUT LAST NIGHT ROCKED!!! OR I SHOULD SAY LAST NIGHT I WAS A ROCK,LOL. Then I have to wake 3 to 5 hours before the pain is bearable. I almost felt like myself again. But then I sit and wait and wait and wait, as I do most of my life, for someone who says they are stopping by or coming home to arrive. By the time that happens they are tired or I am. Today was the worst after waiting for hours keeping busy doing nothing of importance finally some people came home. Yeah I would do stuff,not alone, every one came home and went to sleep. THE WORLD OUT SIDE MUST BE REALLY GREAT WHEN IT IS BETTER THAN KEEPING A PROMISE.
09 July, 2011
this too shall pass
THE GREATEST GIFT OF GENEROSITY IS THAT OF NON-ATTACHMENT! WONDER WHAT I THINK ABOUT THAT ONE, FIRST TIME A CHEAP FORTUNE COOKIE HAS EVER MADE ME THINK!!!??
07 July, 2011
this too shall pass
here i go again!!!!!!!!! home for 4 days and back to the hospital I go!!!!!!!!!!!! I can not believe this crap, they send me home knowing there is a problem, call my primary to tell him I was told the whole neat to my spine is filling with spinal fluid. Suddenly it is an EMERGENCY, I have to get to the ER ASAP, that is a load of CRAP. I just got my walking,eating,and all that stuff down to a routine, beads organized ready to make and I can make money. If they keep me I might really go off on someone. Totally allergic to the place on top of it, I DO NOT WANT TO GO!!!! AGAIN going for a walk before i call 911 it has been this way for years so I am in n big hurry, maybe not the best choice but i is also 3:00 pm, shift change, better t wait until that is over! I KNOW WAY TOO MUCH ABOUT HOSPITALS FOR NEVER WORKING IN ONE. Later a few prayers wouldn't hurt.~~~~~~~~~PEACE TO THE MIDDLE EAST~~~~~~~~~RUBY
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