thiss too shall pass

Ruby for never how well this types out.  The next thing I want to say is this should be a really fun and easy way for me to type out what you me to write in my blog.right well not compared to what we've been living in which is used to being out at my moms house ofthis can be pretty bad for her.  Forget that it type it all out. why won't it continue.  Continue please thank you.  When it is green it means it is typing what you are saying.  And now I must get used to using this device now I must find this tutorial that will help me.  I read a new odd right and I would like it to keep I'll write all rights thank you and I am finished with this practice.

THIS TOO SHALL PASS-LIVING IN CONSTANT PAIN: thiss too shall pass

THIS TOO SHALL PASS-LIVING IN CONSTANT PAIN: thiss too shall pass: "this whole dealing with people shit is uuuuggggggggg! and horrid! first i was born sensitive,or as some would say too sensitive, how is too ..."

thiss too shall pass

this whole dealing with people shit is uuuuggggggggg! and horrid! first i was born sensitive,or as some would say too sensitive, how is too much of what they are?? i am still working on that one how a person can be too much of who they are. is it to much for them? then is that not their problem not mine. Is it that i am too much to be able to function in the world? Then it would seem that it is my problem,i can not expect the world to change  to Taylor to my too much of...ok, so i am sensitive it allows me so much, a way of being and seeing in this world again i ask how can i be too much of existing as i was from birth. i have always liked seeing the world the way i do! what i do not like is the response some people have towards me. being sensitive allows me to be sympathetic or even empathetic not qualities i asked for but non the less posses. people who do not want or can not deal with sensitivity really do not have the ability to deal with those who are. it is at a time like now that i really do not want to be sensitive, that is dealing with pain in my body, i wish i wouldn't feel it as much as i do. it is not pleasant nor fun and a really bad way to seek attention. i would prefer to get attention from my accomplishments,not my failures. Again how is feeling the pain that i live in too much? if the pain were not there i wouldn't feel it! for now HOW IS ONE TOO MUCH OF WHO THEY ARE?

this too shall pass

where have all the saved drafts gone? long time passing,so so many lost some where in cyberspace. the pain i go through, physical ,emotional and mental,uuuuggggggggg!!!  im going in again i WILL find them!!

THIS TOO SHALL PASS

  I AM N LONGER SURE IT WILL PASS I AM WATCHING MY BODY DISINTEGRATE MORE AND MORE DAILY.. I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE  HOPE HAS GONE, BUT GONE IT HAS. NO MORE TOMORROWS FOR ME FILLED WITH RIDING THE WAVES,WATER OR ICE. CUTTING IN WHILE FLING  DOWN A WHITE POWDERED MOUNTAIN.OR OVER THE RIDGE OF THE WAKE.. I STILL FEEL IT IN MY BODY, HOW TO LEAN,WHEN TO BEND, LETTING THE ELEMENTS CONTROL EVERY LITTLE MOVEMENT I MAKE., GIVING IN TO A FORCE MUCH BIGGER AND STRONGER THAN YOUR OWN. OH HOW I MISS IT, THE FELLING OF BEING BUT A PASSER BY ENJOYING THE RIDE,  I AM BECOMING A WATCHER, WATCHING IT ALL PASS BY.    IN THE MORNING I GO TO YET ANOTHER DOC. PRAYING HE WILL UNDERSTAND AND BE ABLE TO MAKE A CHANGE, THAT WOULD BE SOOOOOOOOO  SWEET.. THIS IS ACTUALLY BIG ONE, SOMEONE WITH KNOWLEDGE AND POWER I HOPE HE UNDERSTANDS HOW DESPERATELY I WANT,NEED A LIFE AGAIN. NO LONGER THE WATCHER ,A  PARTICIPANT  AS WELL. SO MUCH I STILL WANT TO DO EVEN WASH OUT THE CUPBOARDS WOULD BE FUN FOR A MINUET..

WILL THIS EVER PASS

I Can not believe it has been so long,my friend. A BLANK SHEET OF PAPER,THINGS. I HAVE WRITTEN ARE BEING USED AGAINST ME. WITHOUT TELLING ME WHAT I WROTE,SO I GUESS I HAVE BECOME AFRAID TO PUT ANYTHING TO PAPER. I THINK I HAVE SPENT 3/4 OF MY LIFE INTIMIDATED BY SO MANY PEOPLE I REALLY THINK ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. IF I PERCEIVE SOMETHING IN A CERTAIN WAY WHO ARE THEY TO TELL ME IT IS NOT SO! I HAVE SAID WHAT I NEEDED TO GET OUT, CALM DOWN. SUDDENLY I AM BEING ACCUSED OF SAYING HURTFUL THINGS TO OTHERS, I DO NOT MEAN TO HURT ANYONE . MY REALITY IS MINE,AND MINE ALONE. NO ONE PERSON CAN SAY IT ISN'T SO!!  MY LIFE~~~MY REALITY~~~~~RUBY

to life and love first-come and fleeting away

big    big   big    love forever~~~RUBY~~~thanks for all the honesty and truth from you all these years!! that is as much to the point as I can get.