THIS TOO SHALL PASS

          what  crazy day! i went to my new pain doctor for my 2 week check in ,he is really very nice i can actually talk with him, about everything. as he keeps getting more and more of my mri's, ct scans and ex-rays he keeps increasing  the medication dose. he has come up with different ideas other than medication. even those keep changing. he is a sweet a guy really listens, looks at films and explains them, plus he likes to laugh,  IT HAS BEEN A LONG HARD FOUR YEARS, I HAVE WORKED HARD TO FIND THE RIGHT DOCTORS AND GET ANSWERS. so here we are today, in his office and he increased my medication., yeah!! pain is almost under control. now i leave my half empty bottles with him, new scripts in hand.  off we go to the pharmacy,  we drop them off and leave, expecting the medication to be delivered  soon.  for 4 whole hours i allowed my self to take medication and be realtivy free of pain. surprise, surprise, i get a call from the pharmacy..TO EARLY TO FILL!  now i am in a state of shock, this is a whole new script, with an increase, even 6 months ago that meant they had to fill it, not now, all the rules have changed. i am supposed to return to the doc get my meds back and suffer for 2 more weeks, i refuse! in a few hours i will get up and call the insurance company. telling them  that last night i had to call a suicide prevention line, i was not suicidal,yet
but was scared it was coming, that is how bad the pain has been for a month now. telling them i refuse to suffer any more!!! i have worked too long and hard to have this stop me from from haveing a painless time!  after a they have paid for.....come on, really?  if they do not cooperate i will be in the ER every day for the next two weeks keeping ny pain managed. the choice will be theirs, $2500.00 per visit or a few $ on medication, the ER must medicate i have a new medication plan, they are obligated to treat me. IT WILL BE INTESTING TO SEE WHICH THEY CHOOSE