THIS TOO SHALL PASS

                        There are times when I sit to blog it is as if in the dentist chair.  I have thought long and hard whether I want to continue with this topic. However this blog is as much a part of  me as I of it, this is my voice for now. why do I feel a need for a voice, because I  hurt my body at the age of 10 and have never been heard, even today I am  not heard, everyone knows where MY body is at,  where my head is, what I am feeling, what I need. Amazing how they all know so much, when even I don't know. Eventually it spills over into the rest of my life, there is  apart of me that has nothing to do with pain. When a  person is injured at such a young age, not many people seem to take the time to listen, if they do listen they defiantly know better than you do about what is going on in your body, and what it needs. Granted doctors  have credentials to tell me what they know, or ideas for treatment, but I am the one in this body, I am the one feeling the results of their actions, no matter what my age. Much of the time, most of it, I spend talking, trying so so so hard to get people  to understand, what I am feeling, physically and emotionally. Rarely are they right, yet they know best... how,why, and what it is I need to heal or function. This has been happening for 40 years now I am TOTALLY FRUSTRATED, so many people involved, have the ability to affect the quality of my life. There are a few who do not judge, who accept me as a person, it feels so good when I talk to them. I am a person to them not something broken to be fixed. My blog is my voice without another person judging me. I know a lot of people in this condition. This is why I will continue to blog on pain and the many obstacles we must over come. The world needs to see first hand what,we who are injured, must endure just to have any quality in our lives. We are not addicts, we are however physically dependent, just as someone on steroids or insulin or.......you get the picture. The pills we take are medications, not"drugs" as in the common use of the word. No one would ever subject themselves to all this if they where not truly in great need, I know I would not! I am person, not an object.