I haven't blogged in a few days, I really thought that last one would unblock me. But I'm afraid it's more than that. I'm stuck, . Not just in my ability to write more but I think because of my body and the fact that no one will help control this pain, I'm feeling stuck in every direction I turn.

This is really frustrating, I've always been a person to pull myself up, dust myself off, and keep on moving. And usually with a smile on my face, some how for some reason it's not happening this time. Maybe because I'm trying to change too many things at one time, so none of them seem to change. I can't even seem to find my smile right now, but four years of nonstop, wait I did have three weeks without pain, it's getting harder and harder to see the light. And every time I do something snuffs it out. That's all I can write today