THIS TOO SHALL PASS

      People who have good health do not want to be near people who do not. It wold seem to me that they feel helpless, and frustrated. Then they disappear, not understanding what to do or not what to. I received the most devastating news yet about my spine, one piece is that my spine is narrowing at a rather rapid rate. Here I lay alone, no one around, to even comfort me. I am alone, lost and afraid. Funny, my first surgery there where 20 people there before and after, the staff even asked some to leave, but they would not. At surgery number 10, I was alone, not a soul in sight. Do they think it is easier with time, do they not care anymore, or are they frustrated by the whole thing. Bottom line for me, I am alone in this world trying to optimistically persevere.  I am just plain scared and full of pain! I JUST WANT TO LIVE A LIFE WITH SOME QUALITY.