this one's a little bit deeper, lying, omission of truths, they're all ways of truth twisting. Why, too many reasons, people do it to make themselves feel better, but because they themselves do it a need to put it on you, low self-esteem, endless lists. I know when I'm being lied to or deceived because they began to feel crazy on an emotional level. but I also feel it in my body, it two picks up on the deception and the pain and spasm make me go through the roof.
I know I am being lied to and manipulated and deceived, because I'm feeling crazy. The sad part is it's coming from the people who are supposed to be the closest to me. I can't figure out why they resent me so, I know I can be a bit of a burden at times, and that really bothers them that they're not here for me. Then I guess it's my fault because I need them. the last few years I have nearly died were going on for times now,and was blind for nine months. I really did believe growing up that my name or was hypochondriac. boy did I show them, not much consolation in that, I might have preferred that they were right.right now everyone is talking about me, no one to me, none of them know the truth, they can't handle the truth,LOL. Now they have all stopped speaking to me. And if I ask each one why I can get 100 different answers from each one. But the bottom line is I have been disowned disenfranchised even from own family, the one I created. And none of them know what's going on, and don't believe me when I tell them.
People who do not listen to other people, or should I say more appropriately hear other people, have very little chance of making things right when there is problem, it so easy for them to manipulate the truth and put it all on you. In the end I am alone, without love of a family. In the end I am asking people, friends to support me and show me the kindness that should really come from a family.
I know I am being lied to and manipulated and deceived, because I'm feeling crazy. The sad part is it's coming from the people who are supposed to be the closest to me. I can't figure out why they resent me so, I know I can be a bit of a burden at times, and that really bothers them that they're not here for me. Then I guess it's my fault because I need them. the last few years I have nearly died were going on for times now,and was blind for nine months. I really did believe growing up that my name or was hypochondriac. boy did I show them, not much consolation in that, I might have preferred that they were right.right now everyone is talking about me, no one to me, none of them know the truth, they can't handle the truth,LOL. Now they have all stopped speaking to me. And if I ask each one why I can get 100 different answers from each one. But the bottom line is I have been disowned disenfranchised even from own family, the one I created. And none of them know what's going on, and don't believe me when I tell them.
People who do not listen to other people, or should I say more appropriately hear other people, have very little chance of making things right when there is problem, it so easy for them to manipulate the truth and put it all on you. In the end I am alone, without love of a family. In the end I am asking people, friends to support me and show me the kindness that should really come from a family.
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