this too shall pass-living in constant pain

1. I was just saw the most amazing movie EVER, AVATAR. What was done to those people and to the land they are a part of made me angry and very very sad. What a movie to see on mothers day. Avatar showed what I have always felt and known about our mother earth. I always suspected it but knew for sure when I gave birth. It was as if my being opened up to the earth and let forth another life. A life connected to every other living thing including the earth that every tree every breath we take is connected to each other. On another level it showed how the pain feels inside my body, explosions everywhere, complete chaos in every cell to my DNA. The total confusion as the war rages on, not knowing where to turn or what to do to make it right,to calm the carnage. It makes me so mad that the doctors I trusted to heal me only and continue to make it worse! I spent the entire day yesterday in bed unable to move because the pain is so horribly horribly bad. They don't listen to me and what I know is happening inside.They know and they know what I must do. So why is it that each time something goes wrong they just make it worse? This all began 42 years ago with a fall thru the ceiling!