this too shall pass-living in constant pain

  The night before a Dr. appointment I don't know why but the anxiety drives me nuts. I really do know why I get so anxious. This person who is in reality practicing,  holds the fate of the quality of my life in their hands. Never knowing what will happen, will they take away the pain medication or the anti-spasm medication. Will they do something dumb and hit me somewhere so I end up blind (that is the worst ever) or try a new medication that doesn't help. Even worse, give me a medication that makes me sicker,like the prednisone did. All I know is tomorrow I will either be very happy because a dr. listened to me and did something that helped or I will be very upset because I must continue living in this debilitating pain with out much of a life. I am worried that I won't be able to make it through my daughters college graduation on Saturday. I can tell by my spelling the painis in control, so........