THIS TOO SHALL PASS

                                    Today's blog, this is getting frustrating beyond belief.  Eight weeks ago I started with a new Dr., Because of the new laws he cannot prescribe all the medication and need to properly manage my pain.  That means he can give me the painkillers but not the muscle relaxers, and that means no matter how much pain medicine is the Rhone at me and we'll still be in pretty bad shape.  As long as the muscles keep tightening up and keep spasm and the pain will continue to get worse.  Now you would think that the Dr. would give me help until he can find a Dr. that will, nope not going to happen, I get to suffer and he gets to your me complain.
                          This is so stupid, you have no idea the frustration, the boredom, and pain that I feel.   I am getting scared that depression is not far behind.  There's no reason on this earth I should not be doing things, and we have no rights, no one is out there yelling let us have a quality life.
                         I would really like to take a shower right now, but there's no one here willing to help me get into the tub.  So either I'd try it alone or I wait another 3 to 4 weeks, it has already been three weeks since it had a proper shower.  The frustration is beyond anything anyone: could imagine.  And I'm tired of waiting here, so off I go to try and shower.
                       Wish me luck, hope I'm back soon, not in a hospital.  By for the moment.