Trust
I don't understand how people can think that any kind of relationship would work without trust. Those little white lies people tell, leaving out a piece of the story or not telling the story and all, those are all lies. Eventually the truth does come out usually in a twisted manner. My caregiver decides sometimes not tell me things, then they come out twisted or sideways. It's bad enough to be dependent on someone who does not want you to depend on them, but to be lied to on top of it has become unbearable. The anger and hostilities and so are so thick you can cut them with a knife. So the breakdown of trust and leads to hostility which leads to resentment which leads to failure. I don't know about any one else out there, I have so had enough. My body makes my life hard enough, without having those who are closest to me, doubt me, lie to me or constantly complaining about everything. I think all this twisting of the truth, ends up becoming a lot of anger and resentment.
It seems all these people who love me, from far away, who all decided that I'm lying, manipulative, and any other word you can think of. I really can't take any more of it. Between my body being a bundle of nerves, and my head spinning around, my heart can not take any more. Last night as my favorite night of the year, and I laid here alone, scared, confused. Isn't it really a enough already, a person can only take so much.
I don't understand how people can think that any kind of relationship would work without trust. Those little white lies people tell, leaving out a piece of the story or not telling the story and all, those are all lies. Eventually the truth does come out usually in a twisted manner. My caregiver decides sometimes not tell me things, then they come out twisted or sideways. It's bad enough to be dependent on someone who does not want you to depend on them, but to be lied to on top of it has become unbearable. The anger and hostilities and so are so thick you can cut them with a knife. So the breakdown of trust and leads to hostility which leads to resentment which leads to failure. I don't know about any one else out there, I have so had enough. My body makes my life hard enough, without having those who are closest to me, doubt me, lie to me or constantly complaining about everything. I think all this twisting of the truth, ends up becoming a lot of anger and resentment.
It seems all these people who love me, from far away, who all decided that I'm lying, manipulative, and any other word you can think of. I really can't take any more of it. Between my body being a bundle of nerves, and my head spinning around, my heart can not take any more. Last night as my favorite night of the year, and I laid here alone, scared, confused. Isn't it really a enough already, a person can only take so much.
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